Deception rears its ugly head!

The dark shapes we get to shift in this life are many. 

Claiming to have behaved in a non-dignified manner is a hard pill to swallow. 

These are the pointy bits of the rose. The thorns. It has sharp edges and at times feels as if we are being snapped in half by these fierce barbs. 

Left throbbing and bewildered by the chaos that did manage to take your legs out from underneath and there is only one who can be accountable, for misalignment by virtue. 

Punished, persecuted and often unjustly or unrightly so having had our liberation and freedom taken from us, we can take our power and freedom back for we are born free and is our birth rite. 

How can we see it from both sides so to create the balance?

By and at the hands and choices of others, living deceitfully.  Telling us one thing, doing it but then also doing another thing without full disclosure. It’s the same thing. 

We each deserve to feel so loved, loving and liberated through love In a relating, which begins with self. The ultimate deceit begins with the individual. 

I witnessed a program playing out within myself. This pattern and imprint of not divulging of truth due to fear of persecution. 

Clearly, I see it was and is an avoidant issue (NOW as I’m in consequence mode) but has created what I can see is a cascade of issues due to one ridiculous decision which then imploded and compounded other past pains. 

It feels vulgar and I know I actually created this situation and there was actually no logical reason to do so. 

So what now?!? Well of course apologise, right?!? 

Cause this is what it is to be repentant, isn’t it? The law of compensation creates the counterbalance so as to bring it back to a state of alignment. 

In hindsight, it was so unconscious or so deeply ingrained that I was blinded or being overridden by this subconscious program playing out. Although I knew what I was doing, I didn’t clearly know why (alignment issue) or was I able to catch myself, or unwilling to take care enough to create space to consider the consequences and/or the inability at the time to see the subliminal program in action. Either way, it creates pain and suffering for self and others as well as contributes to the macrocosm. 

Currently, I’ve been working through and changing, clearing, rewriting, and shifting old patterns, belief systems, emotions and programs. It’s ongoing, as it somewhat is naturally in life but I’ve consciously chosen and said yes to working through some really big shadow aspects to clear it from my body’s system/field. It completely shakes it all up when doing this. I was forewarned by my mentor prior to choosing to work on clearing my energy systems, that by entering into this choice to step deeper into working in a deeper way on these things other emotions, programs, beliefs or issues could be revealed. Needless to say, I feel this is what has occurred and I am grateful regardless of being in it. It is liberating in and of itself knowing that I am moving through this and not pretending “nothing” is going on. As well as preparing myself that it could also reveal other layers of subliminal shadow aspects. 

Clearly, this has come to the surface because it needs to be removed from my system once and for all. The beauty of this is that it creates a ripple effect. 

I made a decision and then proceeded to not divulge the whole truth which has then created and played into the Law of Cause and Effect. sequentially has also spun energy into the past and impacted another for which I am truly sorry to have caused.

It’s a fear of persecution but also (programed) fear around the perception of not having freedom. 

It’s in essence a defence mechanism created to keep the self (ego) safe but to also “unjustifiably” in an effort to maintain a sense of freedom and liberation. Seems to be somewhat of a paradox here also. I can also see this is a very deeply ingrained program carried through in what I’ve been taught but I feel it’s an imprint that goes back even further. There is a system that is doing exactly this and this program/frequency of deceit is being perpetuated through our actions. 

Are we all immune and clear vessels of purity and high classification of virtue? 

Raise your hand if you have never deceived yourself or another.

Once it was shared with me almost a decade ago by another dear mentor, “That EVERYONE IS FULL OF SHIT and if they tell you otherwise they are in denial and lying to themselves”.  There are very very few purists on this planet and few and far between who can honestly say they have never fucked up in their lives.

Further communication needs to ensue to recognise more of what needs to be revealed and uncovered. I do know that it is something I definitely need and want to change and take responsibility for my part in it. I’ve not seen it as clearly in the past as I do now. I can see how this is not only generational, it is systematic and that is also not to negate the fact that I have impacted another by my choices or to say I am not taking responsibility. I just can see the relevancy as such of the microcosm/macrocosm effect.

Deception isn’t a nice trait to have and it’s definitely being reflected through my own actions/inaction. It’s what so many have been experiencing so unconsciously (myself included) that this shadow has now fully revealed itself to allow me to see the bigger universal picture. 

I can also see where and how it’s playing out in many different dimensions. 

It’s as if there is a siphon of energy being acquiesced without full disclosure or truth as to why or what it’s being used for but it’s deceptive in nature. There is an undercurrent of knowing it’s being used for another’s benefit. As a consequence and through trickery, deceit and manipulation it’s at the expense of my (our) better judgement or intuitive knowing but it’s occurring regardless. 

Have you ever taken something from someone that you’ve not worked for? Knowing full well another has worked hard to obtain that but has handed it over to you for whatever reason. 

You could do it yourself but you take it for yourself and do not share your clear intention for your gain of their wealth or knowledge and use it without disclosure or consent? 

That is one form of deceit. 

I can now see how the program is being enacted in my own life. This shitty-arse program of deceit. Thank you for the revelation to see how it’s shown up in my experiences. 

Well now, I see it, I can fucking change it. 

This is vulnerability. To recognise and see our own shadows. To be willing to show up, and be accountable for our part in it. To take responsibility, make amends and change it. 

Where are we deceiving ourselves or others?

Through our own awareness, it therein evolves into and is the bigger aspect of creation. 

Microcosm to macrocosm. 

All relative. 

Thank you to the darkness within for clearly showing up. 

You are no longer welcome into my energy field. I salute you for allowing me to see clearly how you have been within me and I now send you on your way with love. Although I know it exists within me, I can, WILL, have, a clear choice to change all concepts, decisions, vision and way of relating with the deceptive shadow aspect of myself. 

It has served its purpose here. 

Now, be done!

“My true self is loveable just as I am right now. I reflect the traits and virtues I desire to attract in relating”. 

By Melanie Jane Hughes